Lost that loving feeling...

FINALLY. It has happened. I've been waiting forever, and it's finally here!

What am I talking about? I'm FINALLY back to a crazy busy schedule. Now, don't make fun. I know for many out there, this wouldn't be exciting or worth celebrating at all. But for me, this has been a long time coming.

Since I graduated from college roughly a month ago, I feel like I've been running in molasses. I want to go faster, but I just can't. I can't get involved in enough. I can't work enough. I can't be going enough. I went from running around from 8 a.m. to 10 p.m. daily in college. I barely had time to eat, breathe and even blink! I created that scenario for myself, and although sometimes I had mental breakdowns from it, I always loved it. I operated on a constant feeling of being overwhelmed, but it never felt overwhelming because I'd never known any other feeling.

Today, I felt that same feeling for the first time since I graduated college. I barely had time to eat, breathe and even blink. I had so much to do, I didn't know where to start. And while I tried to figure out where to start, things continued to be added to the list. While I was sitting at my desk, trying to put together some kind of a schedule to get everything done on time --- phone ringing, e-mail alert calling, colleagues stopping in, boss calling for me from the next office --- I started giggling with glee. That comfortable feeling I had known for the past 21 years of my life returned, and I was elated.

That gleeful giggle made me realize that I thrive on feeling overwhelmed. I am not as happy and less productive when I do have the time to eat, breathe and even blink. As I reread this, I realize how crazy it sounds, but it's totally true! Is anyone out there with me on this? Please tell me I'm not the only one...

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