The last couple of months have been...interesting. That's all I can say. It's been up and downs...highs and lows. You work so hard and stress out so much, all while a voice in the back of your head is reminding you why you work so hard and stress out so much. You see your life going somewhere, and it will be worth it in the end.
I'm one of those people who always knew where that somewhere was. I knew the place I was meant to be. I knew the types of people I was meant to work around. I knew the industry I was meant to work in. And that was all known by my 10th birthday! As I've grown, learned and worked, those visions have been tweaked, but they are generally the same. On the other hand, that childhood confidence that nothing can stop you if you believe in yourself...well, reality has given confidence a bit of a limp in its strut.
That perfect "somewhere" you envision may not come as quickly as you hoped. Being an adult. and all that comes with it, slows things down a bit. But you can take steps to get that childhood confidence back. Steps that make you happy and excited rather than bugging out and dreading it all. You want to take those steps, not have to take them. You start to believe in yourself again.
While I'm trying to be all philosophical and mysterious in this post, I hope I'm making sense. If my words aren't working, check out this song from an amazing musical, [title of show]. You'll have to listen to the general message of the song — considering it's about aspiring to be a Broadway performer, which is not everyone's goal in life, shockingly. The journey Heidi Blickenstaff describes in the song is something I can totally relate to at this stepping-stone stage of my life. I know I'm not alone in this relation.
Don't give up on your dreams, even if they take longer to get here than you always imagined. The sleepless nights, missed social gatherings and general feeling of being overwhelmed...all attributed to the bigger goal...it pays off. It may come in steps, rather than a roller coaster ride straight to the top, but it's OK. As they say, it's not about the destination. It's about the journey...
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I completely understand Alyson! I've lost a lot of my confidence too...the real world will do that to you. But don't lose sight of your goals and dreams, they'll keep you motivated and strong <3
ReplyDeleteSometimes things don't turn out like you think, they turn out better. Congratulations on all your accomplishments! You have certainly been an inspiration to me.
ReplyDeleteWhenever you start to lose confindence, just remember that you always have a place in our house as a live in nanny/personal assistant. The pay sucks, but the company is fantastic. LOL. Congrats on graduating and entering adult-land.
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